what i realised.....

you know what, i realised many things today.

i realised i kinda like being a teacher,even though im just a tuition teacher.i like the kinda feeling of being responsible for someone...not something.even sometimes Junhan is really capable of making me boil,but you know...after being his teacher for a few months,i just feel being responsible for how he fares and the way and attitude he adopted for work.
and true enough,i see the gradual changes and improvements.
sometimes i just think he kinda hold some potential beneath him,and sometimes i just coach him like how i would treat a grown-up.coz i really just wanna drill out the potential or maybe just to activate the brain cells.hehe.
but sure he still need alot of work.

and then...i realised,i kinda like the feeling of waking up in the morn,go to the super market or wherever just to buy breakfast or things to make for breakfast.
that is one time,i specially went down to get breakie for my lil bro.(though it wasnt what he requested)
yesterday,i wake up early to went to Giant to get some lemons,honey and red beans (for today's soup) to make some lemonade for Jason before meeting him.
its that kinda effort that im doing something for someone dear to me that really makes me go 'hehe' inside.

i realised hamsters are really kinda cute!yea,i know hamsters are cute but i just never thought of having one.but today while i was at Yng's home before tuition, i help to feed her hamsters with water.OMG,one of them were like half sleeping when i fed it, and its eyes were close but still cont'd drinking the water...the face is just so cute.
and this spuns to another thought!
i kinda wanna have one as my pet too...or rather OUR pet,yes dear,you see this right. give it a thought?

now give this a read.a extract from the old CLEO magazines.

MOM VS GIRLFRIEND

" JUDITH ARCANA,AUTHOR OF EVERY MOTHER'S SON SAYS, "THE MOTHER-AND-SON BOND IS THE FIRST RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN EVERY MAN EXPERIENCES, AND IT'S INCREDIBLY INTENSE. MANY MEN REACH ADULTHOOD BEING ATTRACTED TO WOMEN JUST LIKE THEIR MOTHERS. "IF HE GOT ON WITH HIS MOM OR ADMIRED HER, HE'LL BE SEEKING SOMEONE JUST LIKE HER. IF HE DIDNT GET ON WITH HER OR RESPECT HER, HE'LL BE TURNED ON BY SOMEONE AS DIFFERENT FROM HER AS POSSIBLE.

EITHER WAY, WHEN YOU(THE GF) COME ON THE SCENE, IT CAN BE TOUGH FOR HIS MUM, WHO'S USED TO BEING THE ONLY WOMAN IN HIS LIFE.

PARTICULARLY DURING HIS FIRST SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS, HIS MOTHER CAN FEEL VERY THREATENED. THE EXCLUSIVE RELATIONSHIP B/W HER AND HER SON HAS BEEN BROKEN, AND SUBCONSCIOUS JEALOUS THOGUHTS AND FEELINGS CAN BE DIRECTED TOWARD THE GF.

EVEN WITH THE NICEST OF MOMS, THERE WILL NEARLY ALWAYS BE AN ELEMETN OF COMPETITION B/W MOM AND GF, HOWEVER SLIGHT"

now tell me about it!

actually i was kinda not-so-happy that i wasnt a topic b/w him and his mum.look...it kinda make me feel..."hello...am i a taboo or something?"
and to make things worse,i think he never ever bring me up as a topic,just like he never or really hardly calls me at all.

hey...this is not really fair and would you stop escaping things?i understand how you think and yea,i understand very badly.but you ought to gimme the right or maybe just a lil position somewhere,yea?

listen everybody...what is up with the time frame of being together for 12 months means the couple is strong and steady, WHEN couples of 84 months break, married couples divorce and so on.
if the 2 are not meant to be together, then it will never be,despite the 1 year or 100 years down the road.

i understand that it is always a torn between me and something else for him. for instance, me and his mom, me and his job, me and ...and...i dunno but there is always something else.

whereas for me..its only a him and the case of the past, which do bothers me a sometimes.but its different!coz the past is something that i gave my heart to,so he should understand and i am helping myself to always ...nvm..i lost track of what i wanna say.

anyway..yea...it kinda a plunge in MY face value that i HAD to initiate the meeting.i mean, why cant he EVER initiate anything simple...even like calling me?cant he already see that something lil like this means alot to me ALREADY??!

come on peeps, its not that im asking too much or am i?
but on the flip side..like Yng said..."gals can never be satisfied with what they have"
yea...kinda true too.

but i think this is 2 different issues altogether. every couple i known of is the true blue case of the bf just bring the candy of their eyes to meet his folks, with no preparations or anything.coz really what is there to prepare other then informing his folks,perhaps.

JASON!!cant you really see what I WANT.???????

sometimes he really makes me boil and the damage is trice what Junhan does to me.coz at least each time Junhan makes me angry,he know what to do it right again.

i have said for 'i-lost-track-of-how-many' times that i never care for big things in life coz if you cant do the small things in life..who really bothers for gifts,restaurants and so on.

aint it really sweet if your bf calls you to wake up or just a morning greeting?or gives you something unexpected...i dun mean anything that has to do with quantity amount here.

i really like it that time when he jus popped me a surprise visit and brought me home after tuition.

yea..i give it to him when he said if such sweet acts are done every other day, honey would lost its taste too.

i think im gg off-track again.aint i talking about him and his mum?
well to be cont'd or maybe not coz really it aint a wonderful issue to talk about.

but as to compared....jason is STILL quite a wonderful bf to me,well as much as he could.